Another morning waking up nauseous
he’s cautious
he just regained his conscience
off in the distance a car door slams
“Oh damn not again” he exclaimed
how is he going to explain
the track marks in his veins
addicted to this heroin
but here comes his heroine
a smart blonde that had beauty
he loved her truly
but his addiction got a little unruly
you see they were newlyweds
got married outta high school
didn’t care what any one said
Were happy for 2 years
thats when things shifted like a paradigm
he was as old as a pair of dimes
when he started contemplating suicide
depression slipped into his mind
he had a secret about his life.
Yeah he loved his wife
but the sex wasn’t right
he didn’t get the same pleasure
he would go through any type of measure
to avoid the awkward sex
and this caused his wife to be perplexed
“Baby, just sit down and talk to me”
He would respond with “It’s complicated”
and tried multiple medications
but his pain was never mitigated
And a thought occurred “could I be gay?”
Afraid of society would say
he forced the thought to fade away
until one day when his wife was away
he got on a dating site
and checked marked “interested in guys”
“it’s well worth a try”
That thought that ran through his mind
it seemed like in no time
he got a message online
from this dude to remain to nameless
they hit it off and met at this coffee place
things picked up pace
and there face to face
they kissed
and he finally felt the feeling that he missed
but thats when shit hit the fan
how could he leave his wife for a man
she surely wouldn’t understand
the pain still remained with him
and a shot of herione
was his only way to numb the pain
eventually a plan was evolved
he couldn’t continue to be involved
with this man
but he couldn’t confess to his wife
about the night he gave himself to another
There was a train track near where he lived
He waited in the snow for a train to go by
he is thinking of suicide
jumping in front of it, it would be quick and painless
but every time he closed his eyes he saw his wife’s face
Clik Clak Clik Clak
He heard the train
Suicide still on his brain
Should he jump in front?
Or believe he can fix this marriage and leave?
***
Unique is currently 21 and going to college. Writing to him is something that he does to keep his sanity. Whenever there is some issue in his life, he need to write about it. Writing is his release. Uniique’s major influences in writing is hip-hop. He grew up around hip-hop and it has always spoke to him and still continues to do so.
